Will I Always Be Fat?
By Meggan Larson
I think there comes a time for many of us who struggle with being on and off plan where we find ourselves crying into a pint of ice cream (or a vat) asking ourselves if we’ll always be fat. I know I’ve been there. Tears streaming down my face as I look at my reflection in the mirror for what seems like the hundredth time and all I can think to ask myself is whether or not I’ll always be fat. How long will I continue making bad choices? How much longer will I choose sweets over my deep desire to get to goal weight? How many more times will I tell myself the lie that I’ll get back on plan first thing Monday morning? It’s really difficult to see through the pain and tears when you are constantly self-sabotaging yourself. So what can you do?
Stop, breathe, start again. Start by saying no to the next treat that comes your way. Then do it again the next time something off plan floats in front of your face. When you give in and eat something you know you shouldn’t, don’t let it turn into a free for all. Eat it, move on, get back on plan. There will likely be more tears, more frustration, more desperation, but I think for some of us, that comes with the territory. For those of us who seem to get to a certain point in weight loss and then find our old habits creeping back in, it’s a really tough battle. In the heat of the moment the temptation seems so overwhelming that it’s just easier to give in but we need to stand firm. We need to remember that we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. We need to flee temptation!
The other day there was a box of mini chocolate bars on my kitchen counter and I automatically reached for one and all of a sudden I said NO and threw it back in the box and walked away. There were treats in my basement while I was wrapping gifts and I kept looking at them so I brought them upstairs. It’s the little things. And it’s the feeling of victory as you make better and better choices for your health. I am so incredibly proud of myself for saying no to temptation last week. It was a really full week and I had been sick for all of it but instead of taking the easy way out I just planned ahead and made sure I had snacks in my purse for when hunger inevitably struck. I’m not perfect and I’m going to mess up again and again but one thing I know for sure is that I will NOT always be fat and in fact, I’m not even fat right now. We’ve gotta love ourselves exactly where we’re at right NOW. Not tomorrow, not next month, not when we’re at goal weight ~ right now. So dry your eyes, give yourself a big hug, and move the heck on because this moment is not forever and your future is up to you.
~ Meggan 🙂
ps…As always I’d love to hear from you so if you have any questions or comments please comment below or email me at Meggan@thelaundrymoms.com
Meggan Larson is a wife, mom of three, and challenge overcomer! Being diagnosed with a rare form of cancer and undergoing aggressive chemotherapy when her second born child was only three months old, gave Meggan an expected twist to her life. Dealing with pregnancy weight gain and the debilitating effects of chemotherapy, Meggan’s weight soared to over 228 pounds. Feeling humiliated with no desire to socialize, Meggan was desperate for a change. Shortly after losing 20 pounds with the Trim Healthy Mama program, Meggan found out she was pregnant with baby number three, which ended in an emergency C-section and unexpected hysterectomy. Despite the challenges she faced, Meggan has just celebrated her one year “trimiversary”, and her success of releasing just over 60 pounds! Meggan is confident that her success on plan is “doable” for anyone looking to gain back their health and wanting to live a trim and healthy lifestyle!