“Just Be Yourself”
When at first asked if I would write a post, I was beyond excited! Me, I thought happily, they wanted me, what an honor! After a quick acceptance, reality quickly set in. Asked to write about Marriage, Parenting or Spirituality- doubt started to flood my soul! I have only been married near ten years and only have four littles-I’m not equipped to write about this:) I started to wonder, how did I get here? Am I at an age or point in my own life where people want to hear how I do it?
Intrigued to see…
…what others had written I started back reading thru the blog- then a true, palpable panic set in! I have absolutely nothing to offer, my mind rambled. If pressed I would jokingly tell you that I have a lack of depth, but I know that’s not really true, I just prefer to find the happy. I usually write with whimsy, about tiny treasured moments and bits of delight, but that’s not what they want, my head said. They need someone eloquent with wisdom well beyond their years, someone who knows the Bible in and out, verse by verse to be able to guide.
So, I did what any rational gal would do- I asked my husband. He gave me his heartfelt and greater wisdom- ‘just be yourself.’ Ha, be myself, that will not fly! They need a voice, a leader. So I called a friend, laid it out for her- she prayed about it and immediately called me back- ” Be yourself, you are light” she told me.
So here I am, me, hoping just possibly theres some of you readers out there who are like me. Who haven’t taken a moment or a breath in what feels like years. Who feel they have nothing to offer, because you’re too busy, knee deep in life. For those of us who can feel belittled by amazing images, stories of women who seem beyond organized and put together, and for those of us who are especially weary of advice we feel we can’t measure up to.
Right now for me, this moment, this season, is full. It is overflowing with smudges, sticky hands and dirty diapers and sleep schedules. It’s a complete whirlwind of homeschooling, stories, glitter and adventures. It is wild and exhausting and wholly, truly beautiful.
I think theres something in that though. No matter where you are in your own life there’s a comfort in knowing that we don’t have to have it all together, but we are in this together. A peace that comes from feeling like you have nothing to give the world, because it’s gone, its used up. We’re giving it all away in the greatest way we know how.
So, maybe lets just take a moment, let’s simply revel in who we are right now, in this space. For it’s ever changing and we are always growing. To use the wise words of my eight year old daughter “you do what you can, the best you can,” and we do, and it is perfect!
My name is Chelsea, and I am wife to a learning farmer and mother to four beautiful wilds. We are baby stepping into homesteading and homeschooling and filling our days with as much fresh air and adventure as possible. I have taken up writing and photography and have been filling my online diary of sorts with tales of our journey, moments of impact, all the while filling its pages with my happy here. Hope too see you there!